A Positive Childhood Memory, Turned Reality: Pokemon "GO"

Should I Even Try to Win? If you asked me a year ago about wanting to travel anywhere away from my normal "daily" ventures, it would be a solid, "NO."  Over the past year, I have been working on getting over certain fears that were cause by traumatic experiences of my past.  I refuse to allow them to control my future anymore, though. Attacking my social anxiety, head on, was the first challenge.  As a child, I was sheltered, and not allowed outside to play, to go to parties with "friends," or even stay at school later than usual without a reason.  So, venturing out on a simple outing to play Pokemon GO in a park was too much at one point.  The interaction with people I did not know or trust in an environment I was not used to, had me frazzled.  I was lucky to have befriended someone who I have grown to trust.  We have grown close and he helps me each and every day to combat these inner demons that others have instilled in me.  Having to fi...

Mentally Preparing Myself for Interacting with Others: A Daily Struggle For most individuals, being around other people is not that big of a deal.  For someone, like me, with social anxiety, a little PTSD, and depression, it really is a struggle to even leave my room.  My day to day life is also a struggle, having to interact with students in the Math Learning Resource Center where I work tutoring math and in the classroom since I am also a student currently enrolled in college.  I want to better my life and progress forward, so, I do my best to not become overwhelmed in either of these environments, but that does not always happen.  Students, over the years, have become lazier, assuming our job here is to do their work for them and, being in class with some of the same people I work with, I see it even more.  My focus needs to be on myself, my path, and my future.  Not worrying about the actions of others around me unless it concerns me, like someti...

Getting Past my "Past" My childhood was not all kitties and rainbows, but more thunderstorms and snakes.  There were two things that got me through the lonely days of being stuck at home due to a "strict family" that sheltered my sister and I from just about everything.  We were not even allowed to got outside to play.  In addition to that, our backyard was mostly concrete with like one strip of grass that had a fig tree growing in it.  This depletion of experiences that a normal child would have led to me feeling secluded or outcast-ed, besides things that would happen at school.  Every aspect of "interacting" with other people my age was full of despair, fear, and left me to be mostly to myself.  My weight problems stemmed from being mostly at home playing video games and not moving around like most kids would.  I was very inactive and depressed on top of that.  I was over 300 pounds for more than half of my younger years, up until the ag...